Saturday, January 30, 2010
Last week I was supposed to blog about my POC, my whole 8months in camp.
But I haven had any time and its a guaranteed emotional post
And for the lazy me do not wanna type any long entries
Plus the fact that it has been a FAR emotional two weeks in my life.
See the rollarcoaster emotions of my life.
I was super happy that I gotten F.
But a part of me really wanted A
Another part which was the main reason why I joined cause I wanted TP.
First day at F was a killer.
The WONDERFUL warm welcoming was horrendous.
Heart Shattering experience.
IPPT the next day. Cultural shock x2.
Was super happy that I got silver.
BUT my posting sucks.
OUT OF 15 ppl. I was the only one allocated the FURTHEST NPC from my house.
Most times it doesnt pay of to be a gurl.
At that point of time, I feel like jumping down, cutting myself, eating sleeping pills or get hit n run down by a car. THAT was just to desc how BAD my mood was.
I rather in fact fail IPPT.
Buddy love putra, yea rytez. Guess were stuck with seeing each other for the rest of dunno how many years.
My emotions have been to the extreme for the news of here and there was mind killing too.
I slept depressingly
But I woke up not so depressed.
Whats more its a saturday I should just feel a lil happier.
But to think that mon is approaching I just cant feel good.
I feel my passion is diminishing day by day.
Yes its as serious as that.
I just gonna pray hard to get into the team I want.
Far npc, its okay I gotten over with that.
Nice team nice ppl. PLEASE.
Thats all I want now.
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