Thursday, October 26, 2006

Imagine you look at your phone one day. And you received a msg saying your closed friend had passed away. What would you do? That was how I felt on 25 Oct 2006. I received the news that Fadinah, my friend since primary school had passed away, due to heart failure. I couldn't take the news. I was devastated. The sorrow within my heart. That second flashbacks of every single picture of her were in my mind. That girl, the one who always brought laughter in my life. The one who just invited me to her house the previous day.... She was no longer with me. I could no longer hear her, feel her nor see her. I felt so lost ....


I remembered the first day of school. She approached me friendly and asked if I was her primary school friend. I remember how we always decorated the notice board. She was the notice board ic. Oso the basketball matched that we played. How we joined the cheerleading team and always had to thought of cheers and buy stuffs for our team. I mish her tremendously.... I can't explain the heartache I'm feeling now...


Girl... you promish to lead a better life .. YOU PROMISH !!!!! You said we would go and do shirts together... I mish you ... How you always called me little retarted angel ... n I would correct you saying its retarted little angel... I can't believe you are gone just like this. COMPLETELY out of my life ..... Yyyyyyyy ????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!


The last time I met you, you said you would meet me again to give me more sequins ! I'm sorry for not replying to your last testimonial to me. I din even went online. I'm sorry for all the pain you went through ...... I mish u !! The last time, you were thinking of ALL our memories... If I had known that was the last time I'm gonna see you... I would have cherish that every seconds I had with you .....


My heart is aching... The pain it holds, is simply beyond words... I will be strong ... But its hard without you here by my side... I mish your screechy laughter ....


I will cherish every single moment I spend with any one now.... The thought of living is simply too scary... Life is indeed extremly vulnerable ... If only time could turn back.

Flashbacks in my mind
Memories of the past
That once cheerful girl
Could never be here again

She will never be forgotten
I've placed her some where deep
Some where deep within my heart
Where nothing can take her away
Nothing can replaced her

I LOVE U FADDY ......


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