Saturday, April 15, 2006

I keep on thinkin and thinkin...
I kan't describe d urge I feel to simply cut ma skin again.
I kan't describe how I tried to stop but d pain kept reachin d top
I kan't explain d feeling of this pain bottled in.
I kan't tell you yY I cry these bloody tears.
I kan't tell you wen they're going to appear.
I kan't explain d pieces of ma broken heart.
I kan't describe d feeling of havin it torn apart.
I kan't keep on going - this has got to end.
I kan't live without you - my only one true love.
I kan't stop d blade becuz it has a mind of its own.
Tt little voice inside ma head tt tells me I'm alone.
It says tt its d only friend I've ever rlly had.
It says tt I shud cut ma wrists every tym I'm feelin sad.
It says he's a big mistake - he's gonna break ma heart.
It says he doesn't rlly care about me and all ma ongoing pain.
It says he's jez pretending so he ken get wAad he wants -
A woman to have by his side;
a woman to show off and flaunt.
A woman who listens to him always;
a woman without a mind of her own.
It says tt I shud let him go and leave him far behind.
But I kan't do that to him - I kan't push him far from ma mind.
I kan't forget d tyms he made me feel so great.
I kan't forget d tyms he's apologized for d mistakes.
But d blade reminds me then of all d other tyms
d tym tt aren't too good - the ones I put into rhymes.
It reminds me of d tym he hated me for cutting.
It reminds me of d tyms he used to hurt ma feelins.
It reminds me of the tyms he did tings all his own way.
It reminds me of the tyms we used to quarrel and fought .
It pushes the good tyms out of my mind to simply be forgotten.
It pushes them out of my mind,
making me think this relationship's redundant.
I kan't describe d voice tt speaks inside ma head.
Tt whispers to me through d day and fills ma heart with dread.
Have I been listenin to too much advices -
or are these rlly ma tots?
I jez know I feel like cuttin -
so d feelins of these pain will be relieved in tt instant.
d feeling tt I kant describe.
d pain tt I'd bottled it all in.
I simply have to let it out ...



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