Wednesday, April 12, 2006
haiz ~~
endless tots running thru ma mind nw ... ~sob sob~ I was jez starting 2 wonder yY he so long nv bring uPp tt topic .. n suddenly as tho he ken read ma mind, he brought it uPp jez nw .. he said it has been on his mind all this while.... its jez tt he doesnt wan2 stress me .. so he din bring it uPp .. He said its nt tt he wana pick a fight w me .. but we hv 2 face it no matter wAad ..
I knw .. n I understand ... Hw ken I tell him ? If this matter kennt b solved ... then hw ? does tt mean we hv 2 break uPp ?? I rlly don wana break bcuz of this ... Its nearly 4 mths .. n I found tt I love him more each day...He's so protective ova me, so concern about my every details ... all this which I couldn't stand initally..Im already startin to get use to it...w/o him controlling me, I myte turn out worst...Partyin and drinking everyday...all these were bad habits which I had b4 I met him.... So I told him I don wana tok abt it nw ... n he was disappointed ..
Then we moved on toking abt otha serious stuff .. Its been a long tym since we had serious toks lyke 2day ...At least afta 2day's tok, I feel more secure w him ... I was upset initally as he put it in a way tt I was'nt serious abt dis relationship... Lyke I was playing around ... N tts nt true ! I knw im serious ...n I got all upset...N he said he din meant it in tt way ... sigh~~
But I rlly dunno wAad 2 do .. Abt our problem .. It has 2 b solve sooner or leta ... I knw he loves me ... n I do love him too ...
Fuck ma head ish spinning ... I knw he's stressing abt this evryday too ... hw lei ? If I don ans his queries ... don clear our doubts ... ken dis matter be left to fate ??
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And everytime friends say
"you need to get over him, if things can't be solved" ...
it makes it 10 times worse ...
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